Originally uploaded by Laura Hartrich
Recently I got bangs cut and I turned 29. Before I turn 30 I would like to lose the weight I have been trying to lose since T was born. That is my goal and I'm not going to talk about it anymore because it's getting embarrassing to always bring it up and never actually succeed at doing it. But I'm still trying. After I turn 30 I expect to have some revelation that allows me to accept my body for what it is. Until then, I want to be skinny again, dang it.
Local people probably know that my good friend Bonnie is having a trial in her life. Her third baby, James, was born with some complications and is still in the hospital while medical experts try to determine how to help him and what to expect for his life. It's very hard to know how to help a friend going through this kind of ordeal, but someone has made it convenient to help in one way, which is bringing meals to the family, by setting up a schedule on a website called Food Tidings. If you want to read about baby James' progress, you can go here. If you would like to sign up to take food to Bonnie's family, you can go here. Needless to say, at a time like this one feels extremely thankful for healthy children, even (maybe especially) when they are jumping all over the house full of an energy you cannot contain. I'm sure in a week or a month I will revert to feeling irritated by their mess and chaos and struggle to appreciate the joy they bring to my life. I always do. But for right now, at this moment, I am so incredibly thankful for them. I hate that this thankfulness is coupled with a great sadness for my friend. Yet there is still a lot of hope for James. His story is still evolving.
Birthday week always makes me reflective,and at this point in my life, reflection always makes me grateful to be surrounded by people, three people in particular, who love me despite my many rough edges. If you click here you can listen to a mix Nate made for me on my birthday. Because his art of choice these days is dj-ing, a mix of love songs put together by him is just as good as if he's written me a love song himself. I may be reading too much into it, but that is how I look at this gift. And that is pretty great. Plus, it's just good, even if you're not the one being serenaded in grand romantic fashion, so you should listen to it and enjoy.
Thank you for reading all these many words. I would like to try to be here in this internet space more often. I will try.